I guess when someone mentions the word anxiety, the first thought that comes to your mind is of a person who is constantly worried, nervous, afraid and who suffers from panic attacks. And yes – anxiety can be all these things. Yet, it’s not always.
In cases where anxiety doesn’t manifest itself in these ways, it’s difficult to detect. Take me, for example. I was 25 before I realized the hold this awful condition has had over me. Of course, I had a tendency to get a little bit more stressed than the people surrounding me. And I was often told, “not to worry and just relax.”
But, in reality, I never experienced the panic attacks and racing heart that people who are diagnosed with this anxiety experience.
It wasn’t until I talked to my therapist and started reading more about this mental condition, that I understood the ways anxiety has affected my life. Because, you know, anxiety doesn’t always manifest itself with physical symptoms, like high-functioning anxiety.
A person suffering from this kind of anxiety can have a very successful personal and professional life. They can appear quite calm and collected and perform their daily tasks just like any other normal person. Yet, what they’re going through on the inside might be very different from how they look on the outside.
This sneaky monster can lie hidden inside your mind and body and it can lure behind your habits and behaviors. But neither you nor others will know this and you’ll consider them as just flaws or weaknesses.
However, one thing is sure: Anxiety is different for everyone.
Anxiety can be lying in bed late at night and staring at the opposite wall because your mind is busy creating thousands of worst case scenarios.
Anxiety can be worrying about everyday situations. You can worry about being late for work or why your friend hasn’t still returned your call. You can worry about, and, of course, create a serious of most unimaginable and absurd scenarios and what-ifs about why your partner hasn’t still come home. You can rack your brains thinking about where and whom they might be with, when, in fact, they got stuck in a traffic jam.
You can also worry about things that are beyond your control, such as natural disasters or plane crashes.
And, mind you, anxiety is not worrying about bad things – you can worry about good things too. For example, you can wish to be invited to parties, but you won’t actually want to go because you’re afraid you might say or do something that will make you look stupid and weird.
Anxiety is doubting yourself. It’s doubting your feelings, opinions, abilities, and decisions. It’s doubting every step you take. Anxiety is thinking you’re not good enough. It’s thinking there’s something wrong with you.
Bet let me tell you something. I have anxiety. Maybe you do too. But, there’s nothing wrong with me – either with you.
Riley Cooper is a professional writer who writes informative and creative articles on topics related to various fields of study. Written with love and enthusiasm, her articles inspire readers to broaden their knowledge of the world, think and get ready to act.